A Wet Wordy Wednesday

The sound of the rain on the roof and windows is one of the most soothing sounds. Outside, the weather is wicked, and I love how the trees bend and sway, as if they are dancing with each other. Last night, the storm raged so fiercely the boughs from trees snapped and fell, pine cones pelted the house, and the dogs went a little mad.

People complain about the rain. The miserable weather. But I love it. I like it when Mother Nature makes a point of reminding us how powerful she is. I feel small and fragile in this sort of weather. It dwarfs me. And as I drove home this evening and the ocean crashed on the left side of the road and my windshield wipers worked overtime to keep up with the sheets of rain, I felt at peace and insignificant.

And that's my word for today: Insignificant

When I tell people I feel insignificant, they take it as a bad thing. Baffling to me, especially because it is something that quells the rather defeating idea that I have to be something, or make a difference. In reality, most people don't make an impression on the world. We are lucky if we make an impression on a handful of individuals, to think we are going to do it on a global scale seems a bit egotistical.

So, what's so comforting about insignificance? It isn't being small, unnoticeable, or knowing your life isn't really even a blip on the radar. That no matter what you do, it doesn't really matter. Nothing really matters. The reassurance comes from knowing there is something bigger than you at work. Now, I know that sounds like I am speaking of God, and if that resonates with you, then take from it that. But it is more than God and faith. It is the Earth. The wondrous nature of beings. Animals. Trees. Rain. Mountains. Rivers. Oceans. Space. Time. Existence.

There is a bigger picture.

It's when you stand on the edge of the cliff and stare into the distance, seeing how the ocean meets the sky and there is this moment of 'wow'. Where you take a deep breath, your stomach flips, and for a split second, you are nothing but a glimmer in a sparkling moment of time. That swell of emotion and overwhelming knowledge that you are not alone, you will never be alone, and that the simple act of being alone is a figment of an overactive imagination.

That's what insignificance feels like to me. Rainstorms remind me of this - as does the limitless depth of the ocean and ever expanding universe. Then there is the calm after the storm that reminds you everything will be okay. Eventually. And that we are the universe and the universe is us.

Fortune Cookie

There is something nice about thinking the cosmos sends out reassurance in the form of messages. That might sound kind of crazy, but people love the idea of signs. Whether astrology, horoscopes, palm reading and psychics are fake or not, it doesn't matter. Because reassurance from a greater power is a comforting thought.

Haven't we all been there? If this is a right move in my life, show me a sign, then a bird poops on your shoulder. Okay, I added that last part to be cheeky, but haven't you stood there, looking at the great sky and feeling connected to something bigger than yourself. I get that overwhelming sensation whenever I step out in nature and I truly believe I am never alone.

And prayer? How many people believe in the power of prayer? Or the secret? There are all those people out there going on about the secret, which is really only positive thinking. So, yeah, I think most humans like the idea that the universe will direct us if we listen. That it will provide what we need.

Where am I going with this? Chinese food. Tonight we ordered Chinese food because we are lazy and it was gorgeous outside and who wants to cook every night of their life? It was pretty tasty, not exactly cheap, which is one of the highlights of Chinese food. Still, all things considered, it hit the spot.

Fortune cookies are my most favourite part of greasy take out. I've had some pretty good fortunes in my day, but tonight there seemed to be a bit of relevance to them. One kind of has to wonder if the universe is saying something, or if it's just a random coincidence.

Here is the Sidekick's:

Seems kind of sweet, right? Yeah, I was sitting across from him.

And mine:

All I can say, is I hope this is true. I really need some extra money these days. Not for anything frivolous. Just for living things, like a roof over my head and food in my belly.

So, positive thoughts and chin up, right?