So far, January isn't treating me all too well. It's been rough. I started it sick as a dog, hacking up a lung and struggling to get out of bed in the mornings. When the cold left, a new sweeping illness stormed in, and I'd be lying if I said it wasn't messing with my head.
Honestly, I'm sad. This week, if not the last eighteen days, meaning this year, has been a tough one. I have been dragging myself through them, not really participating. Under the weariness and nausea, I feel as though I've lost track of who I am, which is rather unfortunate because it took a good solid year of being alone to figure that out. For some reason, I feel as though I have been compromising myself a lot lately. It's left me unsettled.
So, this journey is beginning again. The one where I find my soul again. Goodness, it sounds so tedious, I simply don't have the energy to do this all over again. This morning I took the first step, though. A walk in the rain with the hounds. Then, I baked something. I created something. A treat.
Treats help cope with the things we cannot change today.
Strawberry Cheesecake Bites (Vegan, of course)
Preheat oven 350°
5 Tbsp - Earth Balance Margarine
1/4 Cup - Walnuts
1/2 Cup - Flour
1/2 Cup - Brown Sugar
4 Ounces - Faux Cream Cheese (I used Tofutti)
1/2 Cup - Plain Coconut Yogourt
1/2 Cup - Sugar
2 Tbsp - Pineapple Juice
1 Tsp - Vanilla
6 - Fresh Strawberries
3 Tbsp - Minute Tapioca
2 Tsp - Egg Replacer (just the powder, not mixed with water)
1. Preheat oven to 350 and line a 8X8 pan with parchment paper. In a food processor, blend Earth Balance, walnuts, brown sugar and flour. Once it is course, press down into your prepared pan.
2. Bake in the oven for 15 minutes.
3. While the crust is baking, mix cream cheese, yogourt and sugar in the food processor. Ensure to use a spatula to press down the sides.
4. Add the rest of the ingredients and blend all together.
5. Take the crust out, put the filling in and bake for another 25 minutes.
6. Remove from oven and chill in refrigerator for 1-2 hours, until it has set.
Now, these are delicious, but certainly not good for you. You also have to keep them refrigerator afterwards, or at least that's what I am doing.
They are divine, though.